Losing Faith

Just some ramblings about losing faith and do you ever really get back to it?

In our darkest hours we tend to question our faith the most. The "Why did this happen" is a big question we ask ourselves. We try to rationalize but we never really know why bad things happen. When we don't get a satisfactory answer we question our teachings, our faith and our lives. As a believer in god I was taught that God always has a plan, whether or not his plan conflicts with my own plans is irrelevant. I believe there is a lesson to learn in every decision we make and in how we deal with things. Life feels a lot like a board game. There are some moves you make that are necessary, some moves are chances or leaps of faith. There are obstacles: which ever faith you believe in throwing curb balls. If you makes it to the end and you have had a fulfilling life you win. If you fall short of that well, what was the point?

To answer my question in the first sentence. I don't think we ever make it back. Not to the original form anyways. The innocence of faith has been shaken. You have grown wiser, maybe a little bit colder and cynical. The point is that it has spoken to you on a level you don't even realize. Your Faith is what helps form who you are from who you were and who you are going to be in the future. Listen to your faith. It is wise way beyond simple comprehension.