Losing Weight

Losing weight sucks and it is hard for me. I was never a tiny girl. I have always had what I like to call "child bearing hips" but I was within my BMI so now after 2 children and 50+ lbs over weight is a hard pill to swallow. I have tried diet and exercise but it seems this fat wants to stick to me like glue. This July my BIL is getting married and of course I am in the wedding party. I want to look good but at this moment I am gonna look like a huge fatty :( I want to lose at least 30lbs by the wedding but that is an almost inpossible goal since July and the wedding is a month away exactly. I had lost almost 20 pounds after the new year but I gained half of that back. It is sooooo discouraging. Yeah I have to go do some exercising now. I am so disgusted with myself.