goals for 2012

I say goals instead of  resolutions because I never keep them.I try and try again every year and do really good for the first two months of the year and then it all goes to hell in a handbasket. Well this year for the first time I am gonna do a word change and see if that helps.

First on that list of goals for the year is to continue to Blog at least once a week. We shall see. So far it has been a couple times a month and then I end up missing some months anyways. Some would call it writers block I call it laziness on my part.

2nd goal: actually go on dates with my husband. Other than our anniversary and valentine's day. I would actually like to go on whole weekend date with my husband with no kids. I am thinking maybe for our anniversary. We will get a sitter. We will have fun. We will have lots of hotel sex.Hopefully in Vegas :)

3rd goal I would like to take the kids on a mini vacation this summer. Either camping or even a day trip to an amusement park would be nice.

4th goal is to at least get down to a size 8. I was comfortable with that size. I am not asking to pure perfection just a smaller size. I don't even care if my stomach is totally flat with 6 pack abs. I just want to be smaller. alot smaller stomach with a little bit smaller ass.

5th goal to start having a Family Game night Once a week. The kids are getting older and it will be fun. I want to teach them all the oldies but goodies.The awessome board games that we had as a kid.

The final goal for the year is to quit smoking and stay quit. I am hoping to have this goal accomplished before the year 2012 is over.Slowly going to wean myself off the cigarettes. Then when I am down to 1 or 2 a day I am just gonna quit cold turkey from there.

so christmas has come and gone

Hope everyone had a great Christmas. I know we did. Kids got lots of stuff,hubby liked everything I got him and I got my kindle fire that I really REALLY wanted. The kids for the most part behaved themselves. Which is a big thing because a.couple days before Christmas they were acting like spoiled little monsters. Seriously, I was seconds away from canceling Christmas all together. Almost did til they realized I was serious and they were dangerously close to missing out on presents. Anywho,we are coming up on the new year. Yeah 2012 will be here this weekend but that is another post entirely.

Seattle Steam book series

So I am half way through the 3rd book of the Seattle steam series and I got to admit. These are steamy novels. Might as well be reading porn when it comes to the sex scenes.they also have a good story lines. Anyways they are written by shelli Stevens. The first book is called dangerous grounds,the second is called chasing Adam and the third is called seducing allie.
I would highly recommend reading this series if you are into romance novels.

Christmas is only 11 days away!

Christmas is one of my favorite holidays. I love to decorate and send out christmas cards. Oh and the shopping, I love shopping for gifts for all the people I love. I am glad it is almost here. I always get so excited and want to give out the gifts early. I never really have been very patient about waiting. I get so excited like everyday is christmas morning and I am about to explode with anticipation. I am the same with birthdays too! This I get from my mother. She never could keep a secret when it came to gift giving. I knew what I was getting weeks a head of time as a kid. I also helped wrap the presents for the other kids. Plus I was a big snoop LOL. But my husband is smart. I never know when he has bought me a gift and still after 7 yrs together I have yet to find his present hiding place. This man is crafty. One day I will find it muaHAHAHAHA *insert evil laugh here*

moving on......I have yet to finish my wrapping. I keep saying I will then I procrastinate like no other. Oh I will do it later I keep telling myself. Well I can tell you I will not be doing it on christmas eve. I will do stocking stuffers on Christmas eve, also My husband's family holiday party is christmas eve. I love going. Looking forward to going this year. I picked up what I am gonna wear last night. Need to figure out what I am going to do for the kids. I have been searchin for weeks but I haven't found anything I like. The Dress selection this year blows donkey butt. My son is easy, my daughter is a little harder to please. She didnt like any of the selection easier. LOL but she is a little fashionista in the making. Too late to order online now Won't make it here on time for christmas. No way am I paying extra for it to be shipped expressed. I am way to cheap for that LOL.

Losing Faith

Just some ramblings about losing faith and do you ever really get back to it?

In our darkest hours we tend to question our faith the most. The "Why did this happen" is a big question we ask ourselves. We try to rationalize but we never really know why bad things happen. When we don't get a satisfactory answer we question our teachings, our faith and our lives. As a believer in god I was taught that God always has a plan, whether or not his plan conflicts with my own plans is irrelevant. I believe there is a lesson to learn in every decision we make and in how we deal with things. Life feels a lot like a board game. There are some moves you make that are necessary, some moves are chances or leaps of faith. There are obstacles: which ever faith you believe in throwing curb balls. If you makes it to the end and you have had a fulfilling life you win. If you fall short of that well, what was the point?

To answer my question in the first sentence. I don't think we ever make it back. Not to the original form anyways. The innocence of faith has been shaken. You have grown wiser, maybe a little bit colder and cynical. The point is that it has spoken to you on a level you don't even realize. Your Faith is what helps form who you are from who you were and who you are going to be in the future. Listen to your faith. It is wise way beyond simple comprehension.

Halloween 2011 (Pictures)

WE HAD A BLAST!! I love Halloween. The kids had a blast I had a blast. We had a whole group of friends go with us. I was a Roman Goddess.My son was Darth Vader. My daughter was Tinkerbell. My nephew was Optimus Prime. My friends kids were Woody and Buzz Lightyear. My sister went as a glitter witch.My SIL was a devil and her daughter was a lamb. We also went with another friend and her daughter was a cute little bumblebee. We also went with my husband's cousin who was a Zombie. I did his makeup. I thought it turned out pretty good.

Lay off the poor girl

The past few days (well since it hit the news on Monday) I have heard nothing but negative things about Kim Kardashian and her family because she filed for divorce. Her marriage was a Sham, jokes about what things lasted longer than her marriage, etc. Well maybe it is the human in me that feels empathy for what she is going through. She made a mistake. She even admitted she got caught up in the whirlwind romance of getting married and it all. Guess what??! Shit happens. Things Don't always work out the way those around you want it to. I say Kudos to Kim for realizing her mistake Now instead of Years down the road after a baby made its way into the picture and things got more complicated. The sanity of marriage isn't ruined by Kim. She isn't the only person in the world that has ever gotten divorced. Come on people. Lay off the poor girl. You don't know why she got married or why she is getting divorced. Only the closest people in her life know that.

Message to Kim: Good Luck, I hope you are able to find the happiness you are searching for. Your still young you still have time to have that family you have always dreamed of.

Funnies 3

One day a guy walks into a bar. The bartender says "if you can make that horse over there laugh you can have free drinks for the rest of the night".

So he says "ok" and walks over to the horse and whispers something in his ear and he starts laughing and the bartender gives him free drinks for the rest of the night.

The next night the same guy comes back in and the bartender says "if you can make... that horse over there cry i will give you free drinks for the rest of the night.

So he walks over there and does something and the horse starts crying, and the bartender gives him free drinks. Then the bartender asks what the man did to make the horse laugh and what he did to make him cry.

The man says "To make him laugh I told him I had a bigger dick than he does and to make him cry I showed him"

Snow!!

Snow has made its way from the northwest into the northeast today. At first it was rain then it was rain mixed with a little bit of snow, now it is just snowing. NOT EVEN NOVEMBER YET!!

I was so hoping to get through Halloween with no snow but no such luck. I guess we were completely spoiled in that fact we didnt get snow til Mid December last year. I don't think we will be getting enough to have to shovel but still. It is making everything way to cold and yucky.

Funnies 2

There was a drunk man walking down the street turning
his car keys back and forth.
A policeman came up to him and asked, "Sir, what are you doing?"
The drunk replied, "I am looking for my car, the last time I saw
it, it was on the end of these keys."
The police officer said, "Sir, do you know your zipper is down?"
The drunk replied, "Shit, I lost my wife, too!" 

Olay Professional ProX clear

I received a free sample of Olay Professional ProX Clear in the mail and finally got around to trying it. First I am trying the Intensive Refining Sulfur Mask (sulfur acne treatment) . You use it twice weekly for the treatment of acne. Put it on your face for 10-15 mins and wash off.













Me wearing the Intensive Refining Mask .....................................................

The Size of the Samples.. Enough to use the mask twice and I could get a couple uses out of the complexion renewing lotion

Ten Minutes later  the rinse.....................................................................................................

After the application of Complexion renewing .............................................................................

My Thoughts on each product:

The Sulfur mask: It smells a little bit like burnt skin while it is drying but it is tolerable. It doesn't feel like your skin is suffocating like most other Skin masks do. I would use it again. It was easy to remove and left my skin feeling soft.

Complexion Renewing: It reduce the redness like it says and it made my face feel really smooth. I might use this one again.

Life the way it is, not the way it was planned.

Has your life turned out the way you thought it would when you graduated High School? How is it different from what you thought it would be?

No it hasn't. For one I didnt think I would be married or have kids practically out of highschool. I was 21 when I was pregnant with my first and 22 when I got married. I thought I would have waited til at least 30 to do either. Gone to college after working a bit or til I figured out what I wanted to continue to go to school for. School still hasn't happened although I think I want to go into nursing and work on the maternity ward. I am worried about going back into the work force even thought I did hold 3 jobs before My first pregnancy. I just havent been to work since almost 6 years ago. I am waiting til my youngest is in school (K) and then headed back I have approx 2 yrs til then.
 
Even thought things didnt turn out the way I thought they would. I wouldn't change a thing. I would have still married my best friend and still had my two beautiful children. I still have time to do those other things. I still have many more years to accomplish what I want. I am blessed with what I have although sometimes challenging.

What's your favorite thing to do as a family?

 Well there is alot depends on the season. Time of year and such.

Winter: We Love playing in the snow. Making angels, snowmen, snow ball fights, sledding, Spending the holidays with our huge family (brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles, etc). Christmas Eve Parties. Christmas Morning opening presents, Christmas Dinner. All the love and excitedment.

The Spring: Brings Flowers, puddle jumping, Celebration of Easter, Coloring Eggs, hiding and seeking Eggs. My birthday and Mother's day is in the Spring. Walks through the woods or going to the park.

Summer Fun: Concerts, swimming, my husband and my daughters birthdays. Bon fires, Family BBQ's, NO School means more time in the sun! Running, Jumping. Kicking and throwing Balls around. Longer Daylight hours , Warm weather.

Fall : Pumpkin Picking, Pumpkin Carving, Apple Picking, Baking Cakes and Pies. Halloween decorating, trick or treating dressing up in our costumes. Playing in the Leaves, Arts and Crafts, School Functions. Cooler Hoodie and sweat shirt weather.

Looking back over 2010 Pic heavy - Dec 31st 2010

I made no real accomplishments in 2010 but there were milestones for me and the kids.
My oldest turned 5 and my youngest 2. My oldest has made great progress with his speech. My youngest started potty training. My husband and I celebrated 6 years together and we both turned 26.

The best memories of this year came on holidays and birthdays. Me and my hubby went to Dave matthews band concert over the summer. I got my nose pierced

Here are just a few Pics from this year:

Jan 8th, 2010 my first haircut of the year LOL

Easter 2010

She started picking out her own outfits

Water fun!

We spent 4th of July with friends and family. The kids had a blast that day



Halloween at my MIL's. She was suppose to be a Fairy but she hated those wings. My oldest was optimus prime



I experimented with food and made spaghetti tacos one night.

I dyed my Hair Pink!

She learned to play with makeup





the day we put our tree up

making gingerbread house

I did a little photo shoot with the kids outside and I was the photographer LOL



christmas 2010, the pics were taken by my sons kidizoom camera he had gotten that morning







Cheers to the New Year and Let's Hope it is an Awesome One!!

april 2, 2011

Kindergarden and School are my triggers. I am having a hard time letting go. I want my son to stay little forever to keep him home and protect him from the harshness of the world. He is different and for that he will pay the price from the crude perfectionists of the world today. There is no such thing as easy breezy anymore. Too many expectations. Leaving very little wiggle room for those that are special in their own ways. Kids can be cruel. So can parents with their disapproving eyes.
Taking a deep breath. I will push through this and we will both survive.....

Sept. 21, 2011

My son has now entered the school years of his life. I am so proud of how well he is doing. He is in a special needs class which is great for him. He is receiving speech.OT & PT. He Loves school. I signed up as a room parent and am excited to see how things go with that. Me and my daughter miss him while he is at school all day but we are happy that he is having fun. Also it gives me and my daughter time to bond since we never really had the chance like me and my son did before she was born. I was nervous and anxieous before but now that we are 3 weeks in I am excited,happy and proud of my little booger man.

Oct 1st , 2011

***I am moving previously written journals into my blog ***


Yesterday marked the 4th yr it has been since I lost my cousin in a motorcycle accident :( I will never forget where i was when i got the phone call. I remember it like I can see it on a movie screen. right in front of me.I miss you Chris and I will never forget you.


Cowboy is his name poem:

There's a hundred years of history
and a hundred before that
All gathered in the thinkin'
Goin' on beneath this hat.
The cold flame burns within him
'Til his skin's as cold as ice
And the dues he paid to get here
Are worth every sacrifice.
All the miles spend sleepy drivin'
All the money down the drain,
All the 'if I's' and 'nearly's, '
All the bandages and pain,
All the female tears left dryin',
All the fever and the fight
Are just a small down payment
On the ride he makes tonight.
It's guts and love and glory,
One mortal's chance at fame.
His legacy is rodeo
And cowboy is his name.

weight watchers -CM

A way while back I got picked for the weight watchers snack cake influencer program. I got the coupon for the free box of snack cake. Whatever kind I wanted. Well it finally hit stores here a little bit ago so I was FINALLY able to pick up a box.
I had chosen the carrot cake:

To be honest I hated them. They tasted aweful. Like I was chewing on a sponge that had some sort of funk in the middle.

on the other hand my kids liked them.

Funnies 1

A woman accompanied her husband to the doctor's office.
After the check-up, the doctor took the wife aside and
said, "If you don't do the following, your husband will
surely die".

... 1.Each morning, fix him a healthy breakfast and send
him off to work in a good mood.

2.At lunch time, make him a warm, nutritious meal and
put him in a good frame of mind before he goes back
to work.

3.For dinner, fix an especially nice meal, and don't
burden him with household chores.

4.Have sex with him several times a week and satisfy
his every whim.

On the way home, the husband asked his wife what the doctor
had told her.

"You're going to die," she replied.

Nudist

Why is it at some point during the toddler years they become nudist?? My daughter has decided she no longer wants to wear clothes. Literally spent all day fighting with her to put clothes on. I finally got her to get clothes on to go out to the bus stop. 5 seconds after coming in from said bus stop she was nude again!!  This one is gonna have me pulling my hair out for the next 15 yrs and then some !!!!

Snow Garb has arrived.

Finally got the snow pants, boots and winter jackets that I ordered. They came today. YAY and Just in time for snow (expected to come Thurs and Saturday).  I was worried that weren't gonna make it in time. That is a load off my mind. I also got an unexpected suprise that I forgot about in the mail too. A Cafemom Lunchbag as a thank you for trying out their new beta layout.

YAY Me!!

If you know me you know I am a HUGE Jodi Picoult fan. I have read a good chunk of her novels.  Well I Pre-Ordered her latest "Sing You Home" and it arrived in the mail Monday. YAY!! I can't wait to read it :)
Her previous 17 novels include "Nineteen Minutes," "Handle With Care," "Change of Heart". I suggest reading them. They are Awesome.

This is what it is about :
Zoe Baxter is 40 years old and frantic to have a child. She and husband Max have been trying for a decade and, as Jodi Picoult's latest novel, "Sing You Home," opens, she is -- at long last -- pregnant.

But good things quickly go awry. Zoe miscarries and Max throws in the towel. The couple's efforts to overcome fertility problems on both sides have left him wanting out. He divorces Zoe and moves in with his brother; Zoe, trying to move on, finds herself attracted to a new friend, a school counselor she works with.

That new friend is Vanessa Shaw, and therein lies the heart of Picoult's latest hot topic: gay rights and same-sex marriage.

The Baxters' years of in vitro fertilization left three frozen, fertilized eggs. Health issues have dealt the death knell for Zoe's reproduction efforts, but Vanessa could carry a child.

Zoe approaches Max about signing over the embryos. But Max, a recovering alcoholic, has joined the Eternal Glory Church, a Christian right congregation. He worries not only about Zoe's lesbian soul but also about the propriety of her lover and her raising their child.

A court case ensues, and Picoult leaps into the fray. There's no question whose side she's on and the plot jogs right along. Picoult is deft at her craft, knows right where she wants her readers to go, and isn't afraid to yank them there.

But it takes a certain tolerance for Lifetime movies to enjoy her books. Picoult doesn't disguise where the story is headed, and plot twists are flagged miles ahead. (One twist at the end requires quite the leap of faith to accept that neither the school nor Vanessa saw it coming.) Picoult's manipulation can be annoying; her sentimentality cloying.

Her legion of fans and book-club readers who enjoy the chance to discuss current issues, however, will find her right on target. (Picoult is no doubt thrilled that her 18th novel hits stores just after the Obama administration decided not to defend the Defense of Marriage Act, which bars federal recognition of same-sex marriages.)

With her protagonist, Zoe, a music therapist, Picoult has included a perk for her readers: a companion CD of folk songs, with one song assigned for each chapter; friend Ellen Wilber wrote the music, Picoult the lyrics.

Down By the River book 3

Just finished the book Down By The River Book 3 in the Grace Valley Trilogy by Robyn Carr. It was pretty good. Def kept my interest. It showed alot of human interest in how we should look after each other. Love and Take Care of thy Neighbor. Really made me wish I lived in a small town again ( I sort of do now but it doesn't have the same feel as the book). I picked up the book not realizing it was part of a trilogy LOL but it was good even not with reading the first two.


About the Book :
In the peaceful town of Grace Valley, neighbors are like family -- and just as meddlesome, too.

June Hudson is the town's doctor, a caring, capable woman who now has a bit of explaining to do. People are beginning to notice the bloom in her cheeks -- and the swell of her belly. Happily, DEA agent Jim Post is back in June's arms for good, newly retired from undercover work and ready for new beginnings here in Grace Valley.

Expecting the unexpected is a way of life in Grace Valley, and the community is overflowing with gossip right now. Who is the secret paramour June's aunt Myrna is hiding? Does the town's poker-playing pastor have too many aces up his sleeve?

But when dangers, from man and nature, rise up with a vengeance to threaten June and the town, this community pulls together and shows what it's made of. And Jim discovers the true meaning of happiness here in Grace Valley: there really is no place like home.

Vick's Nature Fusion

A big thanks to Vocal Point I will be one of the first few to be able to try Vick's New Nature Fusion.

Vicks^® Nature Fusion^™ is a new
cold and flu liquid that is flavored
with natural honey instead of
artificial flavors.** 

Sounds way better than the other nasty stuff. Anyways I will write a review of the product when I get it and am able to use it :)

That came outta you!!

OMG that was rancid. I went to go down the hallway and the smell hit me like a ton of bricks. My daughter took a dump in the bathroom that made the whole house smell. She definitely takes after her father!


*kicker is: it was tiny little poop nuggets* LMAO

Demon Child

I am so not thrilled with my daughter's attitude lately. I am the only one home with her Most of the time so she has resorted to finding different way to annoy me, not listen or talk back. Terrible 3's is right and I have about had it with the little tude'. Making me wish I could send her to school like today. LOL.  If I don't laugh about it sometimes I would be huddled in the corners in the fetal potition crying my eyes out.

Pumpkin Patch

Monday we went to SunnySide Gardens to pick out pumpkins to carve out. We went with my MIL again. Thankfully she was feeling much better and was actually able to participate

 The kiddos had a blast. The stuck their faces in these boards. They had several different ones. Like Yo Gabba Gabba, Miss Spider and Her Sunnypatch Friends, etc. This Year (cause they have different themes each yr) Their Themes are The Smurfs(where the Hay maze used to be), Nusery Rymes In the pumpkin patch and a Under the Sea Creatures/Characters for the Hay Ride in the Woods.

 The kiddos went on Thomas the Train (small train ride). They Loved it and my oldest wanted to go on it several more times but we only did it the once. I didnt ride cause I went to pay for our stuff while they went on.

They picked out Two small painted pumpkins . The oldest picked the crazy face and the youngest picked out the Backyardigan character. We also Got 3 very large pumpkins to carve at home. and a couple little decorations that the kids picked out for the house. Cause even though I love halloween , my decorations are seriously lacking lol.

Anyways when we got home. The kiddos and husband played alittle bit outside and then we came in carved pumpkins. More like Hubby cut the top off and I carved while hubby bathed the kids. They were really grossed out by the pumpkin guts. They didnt want to touch it and just yelled gross over and over LOL Anyways I only managed to crank out one finished product. My hand started cramping really bad. So later on this week we are gonna finish the rest of them. Just not sure when that will be

Do you see how frickin' tall my kids are???? LOL

Sunday

The day of Errands and grocery shopping. I love those days because I usually get to do it alone. Yippee! As much as I love and cherish my children I need a break.

Sleeping over at Grandmas

Friday Night After we got the oldest off of the bus we all went to grandmas house for a little bit to visit. The oldest had already decided he want to sleep at grandmas house when he came home that afternoon before we even decided we were going for a visit. I warned her when we came that he might ask to stay the night. He NEVER actually stays. So when he asked me to get his PJ's and stuff for his overnight with grandma we were both very surprised. So we had ordered pizza so when I went down to pick it up I also stopped by the house and picked up a few things for him.

                                                   I would love to say that when me and the little girl got home we had a girls night of nail polish and make overs. But we didn't it was late and she went straight to bed and was out minutes after her head hit the pillow.